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Here is my story
My husband and I were married in 2004 and immediately stopped using contraception. We never officially tried to conceive a baby, we just didn't prevent it. After a couple of years, we started to think something was wrong, but we figured we were really stressed out and that in time it would happen. After another two years we were convinced something was wrong, so we finally went to a fertility clinic and began testing.
In October of 2007 the results of his first sperm analysis indicated no sperm was present. We were shocked. We knew there was a problem, but we didn't think it would be so severe. We were absolutely crushed. We just held each other and cried... then cried some more. After visiting a male fertility specialist we learned he had a tumor in his epidydemis. In January, he underwent surgery to remove it and also had a testicular biopsy done. Luckly, the tumor was benign, but the biopsy yielded no sperm.
Ever since I was a little girl I've drempt of being a mother. I was now 31 years old and was crushed by the possibility of my dream never coming true. My husband too, was devastated. He went through anger fits and would blow up at the drop of a hat over stupid stuff. This was all I wanted to talk about and it was the last thing he wanted to talk about. Needless to say, our lives were torn into pieces, and the strong relationship we once had was being deeply affected.
We didn't want to tell anyone about our problem until we were sure of the diagnosis and treatment, so not being able to talk about it to anyone, I spent hours surfing the internet searching for answers. All I found were bits and pieces of information. There really wasn't much information on azoospermia. Anything I found was either too basic or they were medical journals that were really hard to understand. I did find a few fertility support sites, but even in these, there was very little information on azoospermia, and most of their information did not pertain to us.
Frustrated, I kept looking, hoping for a place that would help me undertand this condition and hopefully meet others that would be of support to me. That is when I came across a fertility forum where I found a thread about azoospermia. There I found the support I needed from other people affected by this. I also learned of treatments I didn't know were available for couples like us. It helped restore my hope. In no time, I was one of the members giving advice to newcomers. They listened to me and I listened to them.
Only people who are going through it are the ones who trully understand it. Even though we've since told our friends and family about our struggles, I feel they don't really understand what we are going through. Having children was easy for them, so they can't relate to our situation.
Within the past few months we have been through several other tests. I have been deamed healthy, with no fertiltility issues. However, my husband has been diagnosed with Sertoli Cell Only Syndrome. He will undergo mTESE surgery next summer in conjunction with IVF. Our doctor has given us a 30-40% chance of finding sperm.
I'm a firm believer that if you have the power to make a difference, it is your duty to do so. I make a living as a web designer, so one day it hit me... why not create an azoospermia support site? So I did. For countless hours I worked on this site, and still am. My goal was to create THE place where people affected by this condition can find all the support you need during this difficult time. It also served as therapy for me as I focused my energy into a project.
I hope here you'll find the support you need during this difficult time in your life. Hope is all we have during all of this. Good luck in your journey. Please enjoy the site.